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| 10:57pm 20/11/2009 |
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You know, when you've been waiting for something for several months, or even almost a year, there's always such a massive void left after it finally comes and goes. And in my case, there were several such somethings that simultaneously culminated in this past month or so, which multiplies the effect even further. Now that they're in my past, it almost feels like there's nothing more to live for.
I don't mean that in any kind of suicidal or melodramatic sense at all. I just mean, after a major milestone that you'd built up to for a long time is finally past (or several all at once in my case), it's hard to regain the motivation to do anything else. I still have so much to do, but all my brain keeps telling me is "nope, you're done, so just wait it out."
Actually, that's probably just me, isn't it? |
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| 飛びます！飛びます！ |
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| 12:43pm 18/11/2009 |
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mood:  bored music: Suicide Ali - Ko o Egaku Yamai
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LMAO. Gackt has really been embracing the inner dork lately. XD
Nekocon report is basically done, by the way... I'll try to have the public version up in the next few days... |
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| fangirly rantings |
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| 11:02am 10/11/2009 |
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mood:  sore but fangirly music: Suicide Ali - Yuukai Gokko
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...I can't believe I just now realized that, since the member change, all the Suicide Ali members' romanized names end in I. O_o Goshi, Hiroshi, Hisashi, Kozi...
So I'm home and just slept for 8 hours for the first time in, uh, weeks? And I have con reports to write and everything to unpack and 700 emails to go through (er, 660 now... go me?) and a million other things to do but HOLY FREAKING AWESOMESAUCE SUICIDE ALI. I AM TOO FANGIRLY TO MAKE SENSE. MOMMY I WANNA KEEP THEM PLEEEEEEASE.
We didn't even have as much time for the kind of relaxed low-key hanging-out-like-drunken-buddies interaction that we did last year, since the poor boys were kept so busy and sleep-deprived all weekend that by the end of the last day they were literally falling asleep on their feet... and it all kinda felt a little more businesslike than personal compared to last year (but fun-businesslike, at least, not totally work-centric or boring... just not quite as personal), but STILL. I love these guys so much it's not funny. ;_; Why can they only come once a year? Whyyyyyyyy?
And GOSHI. Oh, god, Goshi. ;______; That boy made my day year life so many times and in so may ways this year, on business levels, personal levels, conversational levels, random dorky levels... I hope I remember them all by the time I get to them in my reports because omg seriously. ♥
And you know, because I'm a geek, I even made a countdown of the Top 3 Entertainment-related Goshi Moments That Made My Life in 2009! 8D
#3 - This one didn't even involve me, but I just overheard the end of some conversation the guys were having as we were walking between the con and the hotel at one point. The thing that hit my ear was Goshi saying "You know, the guy who was in HanaDan..." and then he paused for a few seconds and then, when he finally remembered, said "MATSUJUN!!" I don't know why, really, but hearing the word "Matsujun" coming from Goshi's mouth just cracked me up so much. And the conversation ended there so I don't even know if what he was saying was good or bad, but I totally don't care. XD;
#2 - He asked me what kind of Japanese TV shows I watch, and I said variety/comedy stuff and dramas. So he asked about my favorite drama(s), and I told him I liked Maou. His initial reaction was something like "Maou O_O? YOU LIKE MAOU :D??!" And then he told me that he's just started watching Maou himself. :DDDDD Seriously, this would have been #1, except he didn't give any actual impressions of it - just said he was starting to watch it. If he'd said he liked it too, I think I'd have died a happy woman. ;_;
#1 - We were talking about Japanese comedy, and I told him that I like Kirin. So what does he do? HE DOES A KAWASHIMA AKIRA IMPRESSION FOR ME. Yes, the hand over the (invisible) mic and deep voice saying "Kirin desu." KDSFJAGJAHSDK GOSHIIIIIIIIII. *dies for the millionth time*
ahem... So yeah... I will write a public report that will include many, if not all, of my other Life-Making Goshi Moments and post it here sometime in the near future, so don't think this is the end of my fangirling! |
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| it's that time again |
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| 10:31pm 03/11/2009 |
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mood:  nervous music: Suicide Ali - Aza -Sailla-
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So tomorrow I'm packing up and heading to Virginia for Suicide Ali's appearance at Nekocon. Crap, I can't believe it's already here. There was so much I wanted to get done before this day arrived... where does the time go? Or an even better question, why am I such a lazy idiot for insisting on allowing an hour or two each day to do nothing but watch DVDs/Youtube or play games when I could be getting things done? Oh, and even worse, those 6 or 7 hours I spend doing nothing but lying in bed every day. Honestly, I only sleep for about half of that time anyway, so why don't I just go to bed at 6am and get up when the cat comes and wakes me up around 9, and use the rest of those hours to get stuff done?
Yes, I'm bitter toward my insomnia. Anyway.
Nekocon. Suicide Ali. I'm... really nervous. On lots of levels. But we won't go into all that...
I love their new album though, and their new bassist seems really cool. I'm excited to meet him and see them perform again. I just hope I don't screw up everything I touch. Or run out of money. Also, I hope they're selling those awesome rings again this year... I wanted one last year but chose to go broke on their CDs instead. :\
...Why am I wasting time posting here? I've already lost about 2 hours today by taking a shower and getting a haircut! There's still THINGS to do! *cough* |
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| see, this is why I don't mingle with others of my species |
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| 10:19pm 20/09/2009 |
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mood:  blank <-- acceptable? music: Maou OST - LiVE/EViL
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When I'm in a room full of people talking and laughing amongst themselves and having a good ol' time, if I so much as crack a smile, I get singled out and ridiculed because I'm too unlike them to understand why it's funny.
But if I sit there like a statue and keep a straight face, I get singled out for not having a sense of humor.
What do you people want? >.> |
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stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) hybrid_hallow |
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| 09:38pm 05/09/2009 |
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mood:  cranky music: Suicide Ali - Representa
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Rules:
1. Write down every letter of your name.
2. Then type a song that pops up in your mind in each letter of your name as the first letter.
3. Count the letters of your name, and tag people you know in that number.
Blood - BLOOD (I know, real creative lol)
Electric Cucumber - hide
Change the World - Eric Clapton (wtf, self?)
Kurenai - X Japan
Yasashikutte Sukoshi Baka - Arashi
Music memes amuse me far too much. Kinda makes me wish my name had more letters. Oh, wait! It does! *cough*
Revandish Ring - Suicide Ali
Everything - Misia (I've never even heard this song in full, but still, we have a history)
Born to be Wild (...I forget who sang it orz)
Eat It - Weird Al
Cold Rain - The TRAX
Colors - Utada Hikaru
Alice in Wonder Underground - Buck-Tick
Camptown Races (doo-dah, doo-dah... I'm getting tired of C, ok >.>)
Oranzy - Camino
Thank You - Dreams Come True
Tsuki no Uta - Gackt
Rock 'n Roll is Not Dead - Miyavi
Illuminati - Malice Mizer
Loser - Beck
Lily for You - Due le Quartz
...eh.
I don't tag, so. You know what to do. |
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| 12:13pm 11/08/2009 |
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mood:  feh music: BLOOD - Taiyou
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Once again I am reminded of the difference between "welcome" and "wanted."
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Is it November yet? Ugh.
I was on my way to go get lunch, but somehow I've lost my appetite... |
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| Writer's Block: I May Be Crazy |
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| 01:54am 07/08/2009 |
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mood: blank music: Princess Mononoke theme
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Wile E. Coyote.
Remind me how this is supposed to cure writer's block...? |
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| ah, nature |
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| 04:47pm 11/07/2009 |
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mood:  impressed music: something's stuck in my head, but I don't know what it is...
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So it's a rainy, blah kind of day, and I look in the direction of my window. Now, as some will remember, I have a seemingly indestructible, chemical-resistant infestation of spiders living in my windows. And we all know that spiderwebs + moisture = really neat patterns, right?
So this is what I see...
Can you tell? One of those little buggers made a web that looks kinda like wings :o
How about a close-up?
Still can't tell? Well, because I'm a geek, how about a game of connect-the-raindrop-dots?
My spiders do really cool things sometimes. ♥ |
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| I am a geek... and a very forgettable one |
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| 12:52am 05/07/2009 |
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mood:  listless music: Ocean Girl theme in my head (is there an OST, I wonder...?)
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So coming up in the near future is the (previously postponed) Father's Day dinner-and-game thing at our local frontier league baseball field. My family has been going there with my brother and nephew for the past few years, but I normally never go because 1) baseball games aren't my thing, 2) baseball games in the rain aren't my thing, and 3) baseball games in the rain for hours and hours when the team loses anyway really aren't my thing. Last year, though, I did end up going because they finally guilted me into it. Thankfully (and for once) it didn't rain... but anyway.
Yeah, that time of year has returned, and my mother has been asking me if I want to go because they have to pay the lady who's organizing it by tomorrow. I said, like last year, I'll go if my brother and nephew go, just because it seems to make the kid happy having us all together (plus, hey, a meal's a meal). And... my mother swears up and down that I have never gone to this thing with them. She can't remember for the life of her that I did go last year, I did eat dinner with them, I did spend the whole evening at the field with them.
Shows you what a memorable presence I am. Even to my own mother. :p
Also... I kind of watched all of the first 3 seasons of Ocean Girl in, like, 3 days. And now I can't find the 4th and final season, the only one I never saw on TV. I know it's out there but I can't see iiiiiiit. Which means *dun dun dun* withdrawal. =____= I should just order the DVDs and get it over with... but then I'd want the whole series for completion and I don't have that kind of cash on hand. Unless... *scuttles to eBay* [edit: Nope, I can't get any of the DVDs because they're all in PAL format. The curse of Australian shows. T__T Suppose they'd play on the computer, and then I could convert them, but that's a lot of money to blow on DVDs I can't even watch normally on my TV without a bunch of extra work...]
I really need to go back to being productive or something. Not that the coming week is going to be conducive to that... again... why does stuff keep coming up? *mutters at life* |
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| 12:32am 01/07/2009 |
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mood:  surprised music: Michael Jackson - PYT
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It has been a really, really nostalgic few days. It started, predictably, last Thursday when MJ died. Spent about 4 straight days listening to his music and watching his videos, remembering my little private solo karaoke sessions held while listening to Thriller when I was, oh, 4-7 years old. (the word "tenderoni" still makes me snort. ahem.) Then this stupid stomach bug ate me alive, and in my downtime I've been digging around and finding all these old TV shows and stuff that I used to love but haven't seen hide nor hair of in years. Totally geeked out when I rediscovered old cartoons like Animaniacs and Rocko's Modern Life all over again... and to a lesser extent, Saved by the Bell. Shut up, we all had our stupid preteen guilty pleasures. ¬_¬ And then today, a little more digging revealed that THEY'VE ACTUALLY RELEASED OCEAN GIRL ON DVD. OMG GIMME NOW NOW NOW.
...Nobody even remembers that show besides me, right? >>; It was about as obscure as they get, I think. I loved it to death when it was still broadcasting though. And I remember hunting like crazy all over the internet for whatever vague information existed on it a few years ago, but finding practically nothing, and the only way to acquire it was to buy copies from someone in Canada who recorded them from TV or something. And now... DVDs. ghalkjsdksd I feel like a little kid right now. A little kid with a tummyache, but still a little kid.
Did I mention that I'm sick? And that I like to complain?
Anyway... Ocean Girl! Neri! CHARLEY! *squee*
[edit: Oh, WIN. I was just digging in a drawer and rediscovered that I have Thriller on Viewmaster slides. XD My childhood rocked. *plays with Viewmaster all night*] |
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| nikki #008 - ugh |
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| 07:55pm 29/06/2009 |
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mood:  sick
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And this is where we learn what it's like to be completely and truly alone...
...is what I would be saying now, except that I've already been alone for a long time. Used to it.
So instead I will complain about how sick I am. So very sick. =_= Can I just crawl into a hole and hibernate for about a week?
Well, that's my limit... time to go lie down again... |
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| 02:24am 20/06/2009 |
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mood:  weird
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I have nooooo idea why I developed the urge to do this. But here it is. THE VOICE MEME.
...I sound gross. :S Also, my mic is crap and records at ridiculously low volume, so I re-recorded it a couple times at increasingly higher volumes just to get it somewhere near audible. You might still have to turn it up if you want to hear it.
Oh, and I talk fast, so some things might sound jumbled together. >.> It's about 13 minutes, I think.
( MY VOICE dun dun dunnnn )
Now that you're all thoroughly disturbed, I take my leave! *takes leave* |
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| HOW AWESOME DO MY BOYS LOOK? |
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| 12:52am 18/06/2009 |
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mood:  hopeful music: BLOOD - La Fin de la Journee
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AJKEFDRNRKSLAJK.
*clears throat*
So what's the occasion? Well, they've got a new member. That's Kozi (or Koji, depending on whose spelling you follow), on the far right. Also, they've got a new album coming out. Also, THEY'RE COMING BACK TO THE STATES. First weekend in November, at Nekocon in Virginia. And this time they're doing TWO concerts!
The awesome. It's almost too much. I knew they'd come through. I knew it.
Please, let it go right this time... |
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| home with proof |
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| 11:13pm 10/06/2009 |
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mood:  drained music: I Want a New Drug stuck in my head
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Returned home today. Interesting how I felt fine the whole time I was up north, but as soon as I stowed my car keys and walked back into the house, every component of my body crashed. Took a nap and woke up feeling even worse. Oh well... not surprising after the past few days.
Stole a few photos from the near-hundreds that my brother took. Just some of the highlights.
( Three days on Lake Erie )
I could use something to watch before I succumb to an early bedtime... hmm... |
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| 12:19am 10/06/2009 |
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mood:  mellow music: Wooly Bully is stuck in my head
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Let's see... what else did we do over the past two days here?...
Yesterday:
~Driving around pointlessly for an hour since we left before anything opened and it was raining anyway
~Train museum (toy trains specifically... Bro and Kid are into them recently)
~Marblehead Lighthouse & museum
~Glass blowing place but the glass blowers weren't there so we just looked at neat overly-expensive glass stuff
~Prehistoric Forest
~Mystery spot funhouse thing (God, those are embarrassing)
~African Safari drive-thru animal park or whatever (they had ringtailed lemurs and a fennec fox ♥ and we were stalked by herds of deer and a bison slobbered all over my steering wheel... best couple hours of the day!)
~Dinner with Dad after his meetings were finally over
~Back to Lakeside so the kid could play mini golf while mom and I found and talked with Linda, former pastor's wife who apparently asks Mom about me every year up here... she's still ornery as ever
~Back to the hotel around sundown
And today we took the Jet Express out to Put-in-Bay, which consisted of...
~Renting a golf cart to drive around between attractions instead of walking all day
~Perry's Monument
~Perry's Cave (not really related to the monument... it was turned into a tourist trap because Perry's army drank some water from the cave lake or something)
~Butterfly house (so much nicer than the Columbus Zoo one... they even let Nephy release some freshly hatched ones)
~MORE mini golf for the kid
~They have black squirrels here!
~Lunch at, of all places, Dairy Queen
~Chocolate "museum" and the chocolatey-est chocolate ice cream I've ever had *__*
~Big fort-shaped maze thing for the kid to get lost in for 20 minutes (he finally cheated by crawling under the walls to reach the end)
~Antique car museum
~Wildlife center - basically a house turned into a museum-thing with stuffed versions of lots of North American animals (mostly ducks for some reason)
~Tried an aquatic center/fish hatchery and they were closed, but spotted the supposedly rare and endangered wild Lake Erie water snake swimming by the dock
~Remote control car racing for the kid
~Took the kid to the playground while Mom and Bro went to the Perry's Victory and Memorial Museum
~Random wandering, failed visits to souvenir shops
~Caught the 6:30 Jet Express back to Port Clinton, met Dad, went for dinner, retired for the evening
In the morning I'm taking the boys home so they can make it to their baseball game in the evening. I feel like we've already done just about everything there is to do here anyway, without driving out to Sandusky or other places a decent drive away.
Been a nice few days. I just might miss this place, except I have no idea what else I'd do if I stayed here any longer. Sit on the deck in the hotel courtyard overlooking the lake and enjoy the view, I guess? Speaking of views, my brother took lots of pictures, some of which I might have to steal. Tried to snap a few on my phone, but that does not work very well. :\
I'm so tired and a little bit sunburned. But it's been good. |
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| 11:38pm 07/06/2009 |
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mood:  calm music: hotel air conditioner humming
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...Not really. I just felt like babbling a little. No one will care, but whatever. :P For once I just wanted to blog.
So I didn't know for sure until Saturday night that I would be leaving on Sunday with my entire family for a semi-vacation kinda deal. I've known for a while that the parents would be attending a week-long conference at Lakeside, but since it's kind of a resort town on Lake Erie with lots of nice stuff to check out, they invited me as well as my brother and nephew... and I was going to stay home and housesit, but then the two boys actually decided that they wanted to go. Never saw that coming. But they have to be home a couple days earlier since Nephew has a baseball game, and his Jeep is broken (for about the 83452934689th time), so I was elected to drive them to the hotel and back home in time for their game while the parents stay the rest of the week. Works out nicely for me since I was interested in going, but didn't want to stay the whole time while Dad was stuck in meetings every day and Mom is too scared to go anywhere outside the hotel without him so it would be hard to get her to go out and do stuff with just me.
Anyway, yeah. We left after lunch and some last-minute packing and made the drive up to this awesome hotel, in which we have a suite that's bigger and better-furnished than many apartments I've seen and has a balcony overlooking the lake and still costs about the same as a typical double hotel room anywhere else. Did a little driving around to orient ourselves, then went to dinner at a Japanese steakhouse (that was actually my nephew's choice - those hibachi grills and chefs entertain him like nothing I've ever seen) and had a very awesome tuna steak and a very nice teenager-ish boy who was also at our table made an origami penguin for Nephy. Nice time.
Then we headed down to Lakeside, the "resort" consisting of a few rows of rental apartment/cottage dealies and streets lined with shops and cafes and other cute little tourist traps, and ending at the docks over the lake. Was a lovely place to walk off that huge dinner - just in time to make room for an ice cream cone from one of the ice cream shops lining the streets to nibble as we rode a golf-cart-turned-shuttle back to our car. Nice time, again. Starting to think I'll like it up here.
By then the sun was about to set and things were closing down, so we returned to our hotel and hung out on the sunning deck overlooking the lake for a little while, relaxing in lounge chairs and watching the sun set over Lake Erie. VERY nice. And finally, when the sun was gone, we retired to our suite and broke out the laptop to leech on the wireless connection from the hotel next door and hang out in the living room watching TV and discussing plans for tomorrow and relaxing. I even got a couple pages of Essential Kanji study in while my brother had his turn on the laptop. And now I am the last one still up, typing away in the living room while everyone else is in bed and I continue to be a night owl. Figuring there's no way I'll get to sleep much earlier than I normally do, so it's useless to go to bed yet and I'll regret it tomorrow when everyone else is up at 7 or 8 ready to go out and patronize some of the local tourist traps.
But oh well. I'm used to sleepless traveling, and already I feel pretty darn mellow here. I never even really do anything at home to warrant feeling stressed or whatever, but still, I kind of I needed this. Nice.
Anyway, I guess that's about all I can say. I don't know if I'll actually make a day-by-day travel log here... that wasn't the intent, I just felt like it tonight... but we'll see how things go, I guess. |
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| God is on my side, not your side, Bowser |
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| 07:51pm 08/05/2009 |
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mood:  indifferent music: Mario BGMs on a loop in my head
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I should update this thing more often. >_>
So, uh... so far it looks like today might be the first day of the week that I didn't need to take pain killers. Yay! ...well, actually, I didn't take any on Tuesday... but I should have instead of going to bed with that headache and letting it get even worse by morning. But still... yay!
I shouldn't speak too soon. The nephew is here and the evening is young...
Speaking of the nephew... I have the most ridiculously picky nephew in the world, right? There are only about 3 foods he'll eat when he stays here, and one of them is Hershey bars. But today I claimed a tiny little victory when he willingly tried some of the octopus chips I got at the Asian grocery store the other day. >:D The weird eating habits WILL take over the world! *hands out seaweed flavored gummies and mikan pocky*
Anyway, I've also been on a Super Mario Bros. kick for the past few days. Blame a certain five Japanese dorks who had the idea to hold a televised Mario tournament spanning at least 3 weeks. AND WHAT AN AWESOME FREAKING IDEA IT WAS. Japan, please marry me. And through some barely related connection, this has all made me kind of want a Wii. Whyyyyyy am I broke? ...don't answer that.
In the meantime, this NEVER gets old. |
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| 09:04pm 02/05/2009 |
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mood:  amused music: Every Little Thing - Fragile
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Wow. Just. I am humbled.
Matsumoto Jun, boy, I'll give you this - you've got guts. Clearly it takes a real man (or a middle-aged woman which also presents possibilities...) to talk about his own lactating incident on nationwide, prime-time television. Wow.
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So, how about all this pollen? |
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| 01:48pm 16/04/2009 |
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mood: amused music: Miyavi - Itoshii Hito
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First, we have this oh-so-intelligent article on health foods, plastered all over Yahoo's front page for the obsessively healthweight-conscious:
Surprise Nutritionist No-Nos
Next, we have the option of learning all about the background and credentials of this article's author:
Meet Sarah Fuss
Ah, nothing like a good dose of irony to get you started in the morning. Pun intended. |
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